October - Blahtober...

Friday, October 1, 1993 is the day that my life changed forever. My mom passed away. She was 57.  I remember yelling at her because I couldn’t find a check she had written for the chocolate bars that I had to turn in the next day… I remember being mad and hanging up the phone and cursing my self and calling her back to say I was sorry… I said “I love you mom… Diana is here and I will see you in 20 minutes…” We were going up to see her at the hospital and we were planning on her coming home in the next few days.  I remember the long walk down the hallway to her room. The page overhead of a code blue.  I was 13 – I didn’t know what that was at the time.  I waited outside the room as the Dr’s and nurses tried to bring her back… but her heart couldn’t take this last heart attack… she died.  How I wish things were different. I wish that she could have seen me graduate high school.  I wish she could have held her granddaughter when she was born… My 1^st daughter… But that is not possible.  I wish things were different.